Mood: Wanting Coffee
Song of Choice: "The Dream is over" by Juliana Theory
Topic: Uninspired
Days That Have Passed Since I sent Eric's Letter: 10 Weeks and 1days
Days Until Spring Break: 7

::Enter Kim dressed in all black. Plops down in one of the many pews of the Sanctuary. The usually brightly lit and busy Sanctuary is dark and quiet...this is not the physical manifestation of the virtual sanctuary...but her inner Sanctuary her mind the place were her decisions and opinons are formed. This place is not sad and lonely nor gloomy...simply solitary and dim...to better focus on the many problems at hand Looks at the high walls and vaulted ceiling eyes falling oh the crucified Savior. 'I know how you feel..." She thinks or maybe he tells her. She Gets up and lights candels and sighs ::
There are Many Graveyards to be found in seduction. But you may need to sacrafice your obtenebrated exsistance to find them..." W.H. Ranier This is so...sounds a lot like soemthing I said to Lisette at Lunch today...lol funny how parrell lines always meet...Today someone will be sacraficed for you...but what can you say of tomorrow? Who is to say? Who will fight and who will run? Who will take the spoils...but not stay to tend to what the have taken? Why is it that people don't learn...why is it that people are the way they are...

Man I'm tired...this week has been hard on me. Keeping everyone emotionally stable is rough...I mean I don't mind I'd much rather help someone else with tehre problems than actually take care of my own. Jonnell and Lisette have fallen on rough times and I've been doing my best for them...but I'm only one person you know.

God...I hate Will so so much...what a jerk if I had things my way I would so have a deul with him. I'd win in an instant. By the grace of God I might slay him in the process and save a whole lot of indecision and heartache for the others.He is a complication an obstical less than a man weak. I dispise him and would eliminate him if given the chance...

Many times I feel totally inadaquet like I can't do anything and I hate that feeling. I hate thinking that I can't solve a problem I hate it. I want to make everyone happy I want to defeat all sadness and knowing I can't win makes me angry.

I don't know I know that's totally unrealistic and childish and stupid but it doesn't matter I still feel that way. I think the only reason that I've been able to help those two is because I have Dan to cheer me up when I'm tired or down...you'd be surprised as to what a tap on thenose or talking to you as if you were a small child (for instance: Well Kim you see it is like this) when trying to make you smile can make you feel recharged. Yupe yup... ::sigh::

::floats up to Hammock in the rafters::

Man...I wish I could just do...something...

::falls asleep::